Echoing...

"Things don't always have to be 'just fine', Sara."

Just fine.

What is "just fine"? We use the word "fine" a ton of times each day, whether it's to describe how we feel, how something went, and so on. "Fine" has become a word similar to "average" or "okay". Which is ironic, because according to dictionary.com, it can mean "of superior or best quality" along with "excellent or admirable". But that one sentence stopped me dead in my tracks. Because everything doesn't always have to be 'just fine'. You don't always have to just make do with what you have. You don't always have to compensate for other people. Sometimes, you can make the choices you want to be happy. You can rise above being fine. Those words echo in my head. Because once they were said, it made me think about the way that I was living my life and about the choices I was making. A situation can be better than ok. Everything does not have to simply be average, but you have to set yourself up for success. You have to want to live a life that is more than "just fine". I just haven't figured out how to do that yet.

Frozen

Sometimes you just experience that feeling, whether it's after a thought silently passes from one person to another through a single glance or a moment that causes time to slow to a standstill. Something that was not entirely planned yet not completely unexpected. When you can walk away and someone can tell you that you're all "smiley" and bright. A feeling that can never be described, yet one that you always long for, whether you have felt it or not. Then suddenly there are those days where you feel it all the time. And you realize it's a day you will never forget, whether something important or not happened. You just will.

Just playing around with some new ideas...

Friends...

You know what sucks? When you have an irreplaceable friendship with someone that just falls apart. And you know you will never have another friend like that. Going from days of not talking each other, to months, and then eventually to years, until they become a stranger to you. Sometimes you want to ask them how they're doing, or what's new in their life, but that wouldn't be the "acceptable" thing to do. The worst part is getting to know the person they once used to be, then watching that person disappear and turn into someone you feel like you had never known. And you never have a chance to talk about it.